Friday, November 5, 2010

Excuse the Blogging Hiatus.


It's been a while.

Hello : )

I think the last time I clicked the Sign In button was months ago. Or maybe not too long ago but it was a failed attempt to update. Since my last post I just went into hibernation from the so called online world. Popping up every once in a blue moon to shed some existence however tiny it may be.

Well a lot has certainly happened in the gap of unwritten (or unblogged?) days. Yes.

But

right here, right now, I am a happy camper

For starters, I've graduated :D so that means no more posts about assignments and what not. I have stepped foot into the working life as of now. But I shall not delve into that here... :)

Tiny news on the side, few weeks ago I was out with my sis and her guy and we walked into a computer shop as I was looking for a cable thingy... As we were leaving, one familiar design of hearts and colors caught my eye and I could not believe it cause I had created that little piece of art. It was made into an iphone skin, altho the colors came out a little over saturated. I actually submitted that piece for a competition (one of the few I sent it). It didn't win but I guess I must've missed it somewhere in the T&A about the royalty free policy of submitted designs.
My name was credited so I guess that was enough, though they got the title of the piece wrong
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Well anyway it felt really random but it did make my day :D


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Have a super weekend peeps!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Eternal.

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"Listen mere beings of this fragile planet:
Life on earth is not forever,
You walk on ground that will not sustain eternity
You breathe in air that flows but a mere moment.
Time around you comes and goes
Like sands of an hourglass
Broken; it slips through our fingers.
What you knew,
What you know,
What you will come to know...
The past, the present, the yet to be,
Only you hold the key.
Realise that not everything is for eternity
Realise that what you have now
You may not one day.
Lift your head, open your eyes, feel in your heart,
Be aware of the moments that you do have
Those who matter most to you
The love and care so freely showered unto you.
Before Eternal casts you away
Before Eternal embraces you
Before Eternal kisses you
Away from this fragile planet."

--Ava Kessy

Hello, lovelies. Just wanted to share a poem from my sis. Hope y'all have a gorgeous weekend!

p/s: This blog may have gone a little off track lately. Bear with me

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Friday, April 23, 2010

This Is Where I Draw The Line.

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I am setting myself free from this lie
Because it is eating me up from inside
I am defending a 'you' that isn't even true
I have always defended you
But now in my defense, in my forgiving, in my being nice and always leaving the door open for you,
It is costing me my self.
Is it worth getting black and blue---
Marks that disappear after a few days but leave an indelible dent in the psyche?
Is it worth being pushed back and forth because someone couldn't make up their damn mind about anything?
Life is filled with freaking uncertainties
But NOW is really all there is

And after taking in all the humiliation, the disloyalty, disrespect, lies and tempers;
Even love is not a good enough reason anymore to defend all these

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Sunday, March 28, 2010

We Are The Very Thing We Do When We Think We'll Never Get Caught.

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I love how the watercolor bleeds in place of the voice that cannot be heard
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Thursday, March 18, 2010

Dear C.

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Dear C.,
It's funny how much I love and hate you at the same time
You greeted me a mere 17 year old
Eager to explore the unknown and the new
While I was too busy making acquaintances I barely noticed you
But you were watching me, always have been, still are
As paths crossed and ties grew deeper you became more foreground than background
You reminded of things I wanted to remember, and things I didn't want to

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Dear C.,
I resent the days and nights you used to haunt me
Or rather taunt me
When you reminded me of how fragile things are
Or how ephemeral we all really are
You've witnessed me at ends wit fighting for a losing battle
You've watched me learn things the hard way
You've seen heartbreaks and remorse
But you've also seen the jovial heart of a youth smiling against all odds
And most importantly, you've watched a tiny sprout blossom, a process that is never-ending

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Dear C.,
When I was at loss I cursed you and despised you
You were like a big yellow post-it stuck to my forehead that I couldn't get rid of
And yet when the nights are cold and the world is out of whack you seem to be a silent comfort
Telling me it's not really that bad as I sip warm tea watching you by the balcony;
Reminding me that change is constant; it may or may not be obvious but given the time and space, change is felt

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Dear C.,
Although you may never be as grand as dusk by the sea, it's not that you are any less worthy
You are just different
And that makes you, YOU
And sometimes that takes looking at you in a different angle
An angle free of judgement, assumptions, and expectations

Thank you, for although many earthly things are not as durable, I know you are--despite the many changes etched in the sky

xOxO

p/s: remember how you were at the age of 20? how much has changed since then?

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Two Steps Forward, One Step Back.


Just a little something to share...
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I stumbled upon this little spiral bound today while looking for a lighter (no, I don't smoke. Mind you, it was for lighting an incense!). Anyway I think it's been more than a year since I skimmed through the pages of this little book. It holds a lot of memories of people I once got to know from a 3 month national service camp... :) These were a couple of the quote filled pages I made before I knew of my 3 month voyage that would change my life forever.

Hope you dears have a wonderful week ahead!

xOxO

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Emotional Rehab.

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What are you running from? ...Or to?
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Hello. I am still alive. My blog is not so.
I've been running. Running from myself. To myself. And for myself. I'm tired. So much fills this little head of mine. There's so much and yet nothing to say. I've been looking hard at the person in the mirror. Some days I haven't the courage to face her. Some dreams die. And so new ones are born... But right now it is quite dark. Fumbling my way through unfamiliar territory requires me to abandon all familiar ways of navigating and handling. But letting go isn't always easy. And yet there is pain in growth too sometimes. I am humbled. I am re-learning to trust in my steps. Finding the light at the end of the tunnel. Let me do this a step at a time.

I am recovering. Slowly but surely. Don't rush me.

If you're wondering what recovery I'm talking about, it's spiritually, mentally, emotionally. I'm sure we all go through this from time to time in our lives. Right now, this is where I am.

Is there anything in your life that needs healing right now?

xOxO

Sunday, February 14, 2010

This Thing That Makes The World Go Round.

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Your heart is beating so fast you're high from overbreathing

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The sight of her sends you to zero gravity. You seem to be moving forward but you can't feel your feet.
Omg. She's getting closer! (Or am I?) What's going on why can't I feel my feet!?!

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The sight of him is like the birth of a million stars in your soul
Is he really walking towards me?? He's not even close and I'm already on cloud nine..!! Wishes do come true!

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This is my chance. Here goes everything... !!

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Wait!! What if she says no??? %$#@$% ...Too late!

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xOxO

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Growth That Can't Be Seen Is Still Growth.

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A shot of yesterday morning's clear blue sky. The exact opposite of what I felt when I woke up this morning. For the first time since I began the first day of the year, I rebelled against myself and woke up much later than usual. I tossed and turned in bed the night before carrying with me the weight of the world to sleep. I was overwhelmed merely by the thought of the many tasks I need to start tackling in the coming weeks. I woke up suddenly at 9am when I thought I heard someone call my name from outside. At that moment I knew I was alone at home. So I was on guard at a millisecond upon disconnecting from dreamland. I peered out the window. No one. Not a soul. I sat up in bed replaying the memory of sound I thought I had heard. I dismissed it as part of my dream. Hmm.

I'm feeling much better now after starting the day with a pleasant breakfast and a good book to read. Sometimes you do lose sight of what's important. Now and then I'd take a step back and remind myself that I have come a long way. It's so easy to forget that once upon a time you would've given everything to be where you stand today. Instead of being grateful we often torment ourselves and think about the next thing we don't yet have. It'll just be like passing life by if we don't stop every now and then to appreciate how much we've grown.

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Some growths are not immediately visible to our eyes. Although I'm the kind of person who "knows" that Rome wasn't built in a day, there are times when not seeing immediate results can be really discouraging. This is perhaps something I need to remind myself every day, that instead of worrying about the end results I should just focus on what I can put into each day. Every day. A step at a time.

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A neighbor's pup. Isn't he a cutey? :)

Hope your week is going well!
xOxO

Friday, January 15, 2010

The Courage To Be Imperfect.

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Here are some snaps of the past week. Although I'd have to say this week itself is coming to an end. I've been procrastinating on this update. So much has been going on. Internally and outwardly.
It's been raining this past 5 days. The air is cold and a little more salty. The sound of raindrops fall like sacred prayers. Senses are a little more heightened. Little things that go unnoticed are suddenly in the foreground. It's like bullet time. Now and then it's like slipping into the invisible world that's every bit as significant as the one we can touch and see.
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Most evenings I'd go for a walk with either sibling to catch the sunset. Those moments feel so fragile. At every second colors are changing, clouds are becoming, and the light cast on the ocean canvas is constantly in motion. The sun sinks at a rapid pace that you can only catch when you blink your eyes. It leaves in a grand exit. And as if the universe could tell exactly what it is you're feeling, the sky is filled with colors that paint that feeling you could never quite put into words.

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I remembered a time when I used to refer to my cousins and sibs as the happy-little-people. During badminton weekends they used to be running around outside playing their own games while the adults had their badminton matches in the hall. We (yes, I would join them sometimes...as the leader!) would play "What Is The Time Mr. Wolf?" and "Mama Ayam"... That was years ago. Today they're all indoors sparing with the adults and looking less and less like the little bunch who used to look up to me (literally.lol)
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Sigh. Sometimes I just can't help it.

Hope you dears have a splendid weekend ahead!
xOxO

Monday, January 4, 2010

Dusk.

There's room yet to grow
There's time yet to heal
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Today. I took my camera out to catch the fast fading light of dusk. I love these moments.
When the sun sets the bats fly aimlessly about as if dusk were a magical transition into the night.
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This shot was taken in the last week of 2009 :)

Have a super week ahead!

xOxO

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Happy New Year 2010.

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It's not 'either, or'.
What seems like it is doesn't always appear to be.

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I hope you dears had a great New Year's celebration :)) Happy New Year 2010!! It was a full moon that night :)

xOxO

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