I am setting myself free from this lie
Because it is eating me up from inside
I am defending a 'you' that isn't even true
I have always defended you
But now in my defense, in my forgiving, in my being nice and always leaving the door open for you,
It is costing me my self.
Is it worth getting black and blue---
Marks that disappear after a few days but leave an indelible dent in the psyche?
Is it worth being pushed back and forth because someone couldn't make up their damn mind about anything?
Life is filled with freaking uncertainties
But NOW is really all there is
And after taking in all the humiliation, the disloyalty, disrespect, lies and tempers;
Even love is not a good enough reason anymore to defend all these
. . . . . . .
