This Is Where I Draw The Line.

I am setting myself free from this lie

Because it is eating me up from inside

I am defending a 'you' that isn't even true

I have always defended you

But now in my defense, in my forgiving, in my being nice and always leaving the door open for you,

It is costing me my self.

Is it worth getting black and blue---

Marks that disappear after a few days but leave an indelible dent in the psyche?

Is it worth being pushed back and forth because someone couldn't make up their damn mind about anything?

Life is filled with freaking uncertainties

But NOW is really all there is

And after taking in all the humiliation, the disloyalty, disrespect, lies and tempers;

Even love is not a good enough reason anymore to defend all these

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We Are The Very Thing We Do When We Think We'll Never Get Caught.

I love how the watercolor bleeds in place of the voice that cannot be heard

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Emotional Rehab.

What are you running from? ...Or to?

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Hello. I am still alive. My blog is not so.

I've been running. Running from myself. To myself. And for myself. I'm tired. So much fills this little head of mine. There's so much and yet nothing to say. I've been looking hard at the person in the mirror. Some days I haven't the courage to face her. Some dreams die. And so new ones are born... But right now it is quite dark. Fumbling my way through unfamiliar territory requires me to abandon all familiar ways of navigating and handling. But letting go isn't always easy. And yet there is pain in growth too sometimes. I am humbled. I am re-learning to trust in my steps. Finding the light at the end of the tunnel. Let me do this a step at a time.

I am recovering. Slowly but surely. Don't rush me.

If you're wondering what recovery I'm talking about, it's spiritually, mentally, emotionally. I'm sure we all go through this from time to time in our lives. Right now, this is where I am.

Is there anything in your life that needs healing right now?

xOxO

This Thing That Makes The World Go Round.

Your heart is beating so fast you're high from overbreathing


The sight of her sends you to zero gravity. You seem to be moving forward but you can't feel your feet.
Omg. She's getting closer! (Or am I?) What's going on why can't I feel my feet!?!


The sight of him is like the birth of a million stars in your soul
Is he really walking towards me?? He's not even close and I'm already on cloud nine..!! Wishes do come true!


This is my chance. Here goes everything... !!


Wait!! What if she says no??? %$#@$% ...Too late!


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xOxO

Happy New Year 2010.

It's not 'either, or'.

What seems like it is doesn't always appear to be.

I hope you dears had a great New Year's celebration :)) Happy New Year 2010!! It was a full moon that night :)

xOxO

That Imperfect Circle.

Every artist knows those moments where love runs through each stroke of the brush.

xOxO

Take My Hand.

Sometimes when words fail. . .

To be continued. . .

Love Is Purple

Hey my dears,

This is part I of today's post :) This a painting I did a year ago.

Oh part II is the post below! Please have a look :) I was waiting for the video to upload so I posted this one up first. But it's updated as the post before so please scroll down a bit :)

Rest.

I was down with a fever yesterday. A terrible headache and sore throat. Haven't felt so horrible in such a long time! Had a little scare what with the current flu virus pandemic... But with the help of some tablets and a nice warm soup (courtesy of my love:)) I'm feeling much better! I decided to dedicate this day for rest so I pretty much stayed in bed most of the hours. But after a lot of sleep I got bored and started drawing...

Please take care of your health *Note to self*

Drink lots and lots of water!

Take deep breaths...

...and have enough rest! =]

xOxO

p/s: please wear a flu mask when you're out in crowded places!

Paint My Heart.

A tiny card for my beau.

I just spread the watercolors out and the colors just bled through my punctus-tip brush.

And it seems my wish came true overnight: A collection of Paulo Coelho books!

**Thanks, love! I'm the happiest person on Planet Purple :)

Nostalgia

I miss you.

I know it's been a while since my last post. I've been very busy attending to errands I initially unlisted off my holiday plans. Oh well. The only thing I'm bummed out about is my toothache :'(

My wisdom tooth is the culprit. Thought it would be alright in a few days (like it usually would be), unfortunately after close to a week I could barely eat anything required chewing... So, finally I went to the dentist yesterday and got me some med. Hohoho.

I've been feeling pretty nostalgic since hanging around home the past week. My room and all my stuff; the family affair; the cool breezes; the sound of water dripping on mossy pavements after it rains; the blue blue sky (!); the simplicity of the material reality laced with the complexity of the way we live our lives; old photographs; old desires that have seeped into the walls of this home, worn and faded; the dead tree of life; and life oh, life!

Nostalgia is the name of this little painting to the left. I was basically just looking for an inspiration for my Incongruity Project (see last post) so I took out my watercolors and started painting. It's actually inspired by a comic book I was reading. The analogous colors of cityscapes are nostalgic pieces of memory in my lil' head: peaceful, dreamy, empty and yet covered by an unknown (and almost fearful force)...

Bon Appettit! I need to unwind..

xOxO